It makes me wonder how every little choice you make leads you to a completely different road. And the remote effect(s) of every action no matter how seemingly insignificant in proportion may be grander than it seems and it just takes you by surprise. Our what ifs in life have always haunted us borne out of belief in endless possibilities, or simply knowing things could have turned out some other way; that they could be done better and again.
It's always been there, it could have been intensified by experiences of others that we get to witness, or even by popular movies and TV shows. I don't know but everytime I watch 500 Days of Summer, I reckon that it's something that happens to unfortunate couples everyday in real life. It could get complicated with anyone (expectations vs. reality aside), so it just wouldn't work. Summer just decided one day to go to a coffee shop and read a book or something, and then she meets the one. She didn't even believe in destiny (likewise), yes, but what could have happened if she left five minutes early before the man she fell in love with came in? She could have had a different fiance, and a little ways down the road, a different future hometown or different future kids with a different father. Or she could not have gotten married at all. And of course, Ted Mosby. I grew up watching How I Met Your Mother and upon seeing the first few episodes of the last season, I wonder, would Ted have met the "mother" if Lily didn't hop on that train days before Barney and Robin's wedding? It's fiction, but there's always a piece of reality in every story. Every day could have turned out different. How would things be had you taken the train instead of the bus, or if you did not comment on that Facebook post, or if you did not go on overtime and left the office an hour early that day. One thing, one little decision could change your life and you are yet to know.
The little choices illuminate the roads we are about to take. I often contemplate about my choices after graduation. I don't know how my life would have turned out if I did not affix my signature on that contract with MCC. Would I still be pursuing a career in HR right now? I would have had a different first job at a different company. I could have a job with different exposures, something that might require me to travel a lot, explore new places. I might be loving it or hating it or somewhere in between. I would have met different people, and made different adventures with a different set of friends. And how could I forget, I would have never met Ced, my best friend / Dr. Love / the person who proved me wrong and restored my faith in believing that the man I always dreamed of (whose personality I believed was beyond existence) is just around the corner (and he was, literally... just around the corner, in that very office).
I was never an impulsive decision-maker but I can't deny that I've also made bad choices in life. No matter how much thought I put into every single one. But in the end there are no wrong choices, only bad ones.
And afterall, I might have cancelled out a lot of little choices but I wouldn't really have it any other way, than this.
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